[Hook]
Memory flickers like a busted VHS
Grandma calls me by a name that never was
I light another wood just to watch it burn slow
Ash on the carpet, mind on death row
Brain cells scatter like roaches when the light hits
I’m still here, but I’m already a ghost in this
Roll it, spark, cough, forget, repeat
Dementia in my blood and the weed my only peace
[Verse 1]
Clock on the wall melts sideways, Dali with the hands
Mama crying in the kitchen, asking who I am
I laugh, but it cracks like old paint on the ceiling
Pills in my skull got the whole room spinning
Doctor said stop, I said doc you don’t feel this
Every blunt is a blanket when the cold truth hits
Mirror shows a stranger wearing yesterday’s skin
Eyes red as sirens, thoughts paper-thin
I promised I’d quit when the pain went away
But the pain moved in permanent, signed the lease today
[Pre-Hook]
Static in my head, TV snow in my veins
Every hit deletes another piece of my name
[Hook]
[Verse 2]
Prescription bottles rattle like maracas in the drawer
I mix them with the smoke till I don’t hurt anymore
Voices overlap, past and present in a brawl
I can’t tell if I’m dreaming or if I’m dreaming I fall
Friends turned to faces I scroll past on the feed
They text “you good?” I reply with a weed leaf
Truth is I’m drowning in 3 grams deep in a blackout
Woke up on the floor asking who turned the lights out
Tomorrow’s a rumor I stopped believing in
So I keep the lighter flicking, let the cycle spin
[Bridge – half-whispered, tape-stop glitches]
I wasn’t built for this world this loud
Thoughts ricochet, can’t shut them down
If I burn slow enough maybe time forgets
Maybe the smoke writes my name in the air before it regrets
[Verse 3 – rage flip, distorted scream layers]
Brain on fire, synapses miswire
Every drag is a prayer to a god that retired
I scream at the ceiling but the ceiling just stares
Cracks in the plaster look like veins full of despair
I’m the glitch in the family photo nobody saves
The son they keep losing in slower waves
Light it again, let the room disappear
If I can’t remember the pain, then the pain isn’t here
[Final Hook – softer, almost lullaby over crushing 808]
Memory flickers like a busted VHS
I don’t know my name, but I know this stress
Roll another one, watch the world compress
Ash on my chest, death in every breath
I’m still here, but I’m already gone I guess
Dementia in my blood and the weed my only yes
Roll it, spark it, cough, forget, rest
Goodnight to the boy I failed to protect
[Outro – rain + vinyl runout groove]
Click… hiss… silence.