[Intro]
[Verse 1]
Woke up in the same stain, ceiling cracks like veins
Mom’s pills on the nightstand, whispering my name
Dad’s ghost in the hallway, bottle in his fist
Screams echo forever, love never exists
[Pre-Chorus]
Mirror shows a carcass, eyes already dead
Heartbeat on the fritz, brain full of lead
[Chorus]
I’M THE ASH IN THE TRAY OF A WORLD THAT DON’T CARE
BLOOD IN THE SINK, ROACHES IN MY HAIR
NO GOD, NO HOPE, JUST THE BLADE AND THE ROPE
EVERY BREATH IS A JOKE, EVERY SCAR IS A TROPE
FUCK ME, I’M DONE—LET THE VOID FUCKING COME!
[Post-Chorus]
Fingers too numb to dial 911…
Voicemail full of “sorry, wrong number, hon”
[Verse 2]
Sister OD’d on the bathroom floor
Needle still warm, I locked the door
Texted her boyfriend, “she’s finally free”
He replied with a meme, laughing emoji
[Pre-Chorus 2]
Dog starved in the yard, chain around its throat
I fed it my tears—still wouldn’t float
[Chorus]
I’M THE ASH IN THE TRAY OF A WORLD THAT DON’T CARE
CROWS PECK MY NAME OFF THE TOMBSTONE THERE
NO LIGHT, NO DAWN, JUST THE PISS IN MY VEINS
EVERY DREAM IS A SCREAM, EVERY PRAYER IS PROFANE
FUCK ME, I’M DONE—LET THE VOID FUCKING COME!
[Bridge]
I counted the pills like birthday candles
Wished for silence, blew out the handles
The cake was my heart, frosting was rust
Happy never, return to dust
[Breakdown]
CUT! DEEPER! SPILL THE FUCKING RIVER!
NO ONE COMES, NO ONE FUCKING DELIVERS!
WRISTS! OPEN! LET THE RED CHOIR SING!
FLIES! FEAST! CROWN ME THEIR KING!
[Solo]
[Verse 3]
Last cigarette tastes like her goodbye kiss
Ash falls on the letter I’ll never miss
“Dear no one, I tried, but the dark won”
Signed with a teardrop, loaded the gun
[Final Chorus]
I AM THE ASH… in the tray… of a world…
Every promise a lie, every flag unfurled
No heaven, no hell, just the same fucking cell
Mom’s voice on the wind: “See you soon, farewell”
Fuck me… I’m done…
The void… finally…