[Chorus]
Betrayed by the ones I held close to my chest
Loyal to ghosts who left me in this mess
Pain in my veins that nobody can read
Screaming inside, but outside I bleed
They turned their backs when the darkness crept in
No hands to grab, just the weight of my sins
Trapped in this hell that no soul understands
Shattered in silence, alone where I stand
[Verse 1]
Mind's a minefield, every step detonates
Flashbacks flicker like faulty cassette tapes
Trusted the circle, they scattered like smoke
Left me to choke on the words that they spoke
Anxiety gripping, chest caving in slow
Depression a shadow that won't let me go
Regret is a blade twisting deep in my ribs
Rage in my fists, but I'm swinging at ghosts
Self-loathing whispers, "You deserve all this hurt"
Every mirror reflects just a pile of dirt
Bottles and pills just to quiet the storm
Numb for a night, then the cycle reforms
[Verse 2]
Spiraling thoughts like a drain pulling down
Voices colliding, can't distinguish the sound
Impulsive decisions, bridges burned in the blaze
Woke up in wreckage counting lost yesterdays
PTSD ticking like bombs in my dreams
Jump at the shadows, tear open the seams
Fists through the drywall, blood on the floor
Screaming at nothing, begging for more
Trust is a corpse that I buried too deep
Every new face wears the mask of deceit
Demons debating inside of my skull
One wants me dead, the other wants me dull
Question my future-does healing exist?
Or am I just fragments too broken to fix?
[Chorus]
Betrayed by the ones I held close to my chest
Loyal to ghosts who left me in this mess
Pain in my veins that nobody can read
Screaming inside, but outside I bleed
They turned their backs when the darkness crept in
No hands to grab, just the weight of my sins
Trapped in this hell that no soul understands
Shattered in silence, alone where I stand
[Verse 3]
Staring at shards of the man I once knew
Pieces so jagged they cut coming through
Nights feel eternal, dawn never arrives
Surviving on echoes of reasons to thrive
But something ignites in the pit of the ruin
A flicker refusing to let the dark win
I trace every scar like a map of the war
Each one a lesson, not just open sores
Mistakes were the mortar that crumbled the frame
But crumbling's needed to build it again
Alone doesn't mean that I'm empty inside
It means I decide who can stand by my side
[Verse 4]
Rebuilding in quiet, brick by brutal brick
No need for the crowd that made everything sick
The rage starts to settle, the storm starts to cease
Not fixed, never flawless, but finding some peace
I fell to the bottom to learn how to climb
Turned poison to purpose one day at a time
The shadows still linger, they always will stay
But I walk through the dark without losing my way
Self-reliance a weapon forged out of the break
I don't need their hands-I've learned how to take
My own shattered pieces and mold them to steel
The wreckage was real, but so is the heal
[Final Chorus]
Betrayed by the ones I held close to my chest
But I'm rising from ashes they never confessed
Pain carved the path that nobody could see
Screaming turned strength-now the voice is in me
They walked away when the night wouldn't end
But I found my light in the places I bent
You're not alone in the hell you withstand
Pick up your pieces-you'll build with your hands
Shattered no more, I stand where I fell
Healing in silence, I'm saving myself